The beginning
I have started many blogs in my past. I enjoy writing, I have been told I'm good at it, though I'm certain there will be grammatical errors. Commas in the wrong places, and run-on sentences. I type exactly as I talk and I just need to get things out. I never continue blogs, but I hope that I can complete this one and take you through my journey.
I was diagnosed with sleep apnea years ago. I remember when I was 17, staying in a hotel with friends and two of them woke up me up from a nap and were very concerned, they thought I was dying. I guess that was my first experience knowing that something was off, though it didn't register.
Fastforward to me, 36 year old female, morbidly obese- according to medical charts and I have severe sleep apnea. I am a single mother and I never was serious about my initial diagnoses, but now that I'm older and a mother, I became serious about it. My latest sleep study told me that I had 60+ times that I stop breathing an hour, with 90+ when i'm on my back. I tried a c-pap machine before and felt so claustrophobic that I couldn't take it and it collected dust.
Most recently, I had my septum fixed as I had lived for years with a deviated septum and what I was told was a 40% block in my nasal passage. So now that I have at the surgery, I am scheduled for another study, doctors orders were to get lean by getting my metabolic rate up. He suggested lifting weights. The problem is,, I"m ALWAYS tired, as it is, I slept 7 hours, then another 3 during a nap mid-day. I have to get this under control. My life depends on it and my daughters little life depends on me. I don't want to weight what I do, I don't want to feel how I feel and I want to make the changes so I can live a longer life and be a healthier and more active mom.
The idea of getting fit always scared me, I never have the energy to do what I really enjoy doing. I enjoy riding my bike, and getting out and swimming, but I always feel so run-down that I just can't handle it. I want to do this, I want to feel better. I want to take my kid to the park and not feel like its an absolute chore that makes me want to just lay down and nap after, we live 50 feet from the park entrance.
I was diagnosed with sleep apnea years ago. I remember when I was 17, staying in a hotel with friends and two of them woke up me up from a nap and were very concerned, they thought I was dying. I guess that was my first experience knowing that something was off, though it didn't register.
Fastforward to me, 36 year old female, morbidly obese- according to medical charts and I have severe sleep apnea. I am a single mother and I never was serious about my initial diagnoses, but now that I'm older and a mother, I became serious about it. My latest sleep study told me that I had 60+ times that I stop breathing an hour, with 90+ when i'm on my back. I tried a c-pap machine before and felt so claustrophobic that I couldn't take it and it collected dust.
Most recently, I had my septum fixed as I had lived for years with a deviated septum and what I was told was a 40% block in my nasal passage. So now that I have at the surgery, I am scheduled for another study, doctors orders were to get lean by getting my metabolic rate up. He suggested lifting weights. The problem is,, I"m ALWAYS tired, as it is, I slept 7 hours, then another 3 during a nap mid-day. I have to get this under control. My life depends on it and my daughters little life depends on me. I don't want to weight what I do, I don't want to feel how I feel and I want to make the changes so I can live a longer life and be a healthier and more active mom.
The idea of getting fit always scared me, I never have the energy to do what I really enjoy doing. I enjoy riding my bike, and getting out and swimming, but I always feel so run-down that I just can't handle it. I want to do this, I want to feel better. I want to take my kid to the park and not feel like its an absolute chore that makes me want to just lay down and nap after, we live 50 feet from the park entrance.
As I have gotten older, I have noticed how my body feels. My friend suggested through all of this I should try an anti-inflammatory diet. I was telling her that I can actually feel it in my joints, they just feel full and she said she thinks that would be really great. So tomorrow, I start on a juice cleanse to restart my system, and then I will transition into healthier eating, eliminating Dairy, gluten and refined sugars. Right now it all sounds good and manageable, but to me, it seems scary and I feel like i'm already going to fail. So I need to write. I want to write. hopefully my journey is a beautiful ride of trial and error and ups and downs and I have readers that need to know what happens next, what it feels like, what works and what doesn't work. Maybe I can help someone with their own journey, or perhaps someone can help me with mine.
Here we go.
Here we go.
Comments
Post a Comment